this is wad yingting sent me yesterday. she tinks i always look ver stressed up. so i promised to do some reflections. so here i am...

Don’t face your problems alone
Problems can appear to be unsolvable. We are social creatures who need to discuss our problems with others, whether it be those who care about us most or those who have faced the same problems we have. When we are alone, problems fester. By sharing, we can gain perspective and find solutions.

/i do share my problems sometimes. but people seems to ignore yeahs. maybe the way i say doesn't look like a problem. i have to make a big fuss over it, then people may start to be concern about. that's what i feel.

Being an only child, it's terrible. i always envy others that have siblings.
I do treasure my friends. all of you are great, most of the time.
i know it is impossible for each an everyone of you to care a lot for me.
That's perhaps asking too much yeah.

In my everyday life, i cannot really find someone that i can talk to.
I throw my words here. but they are left here unsolved
It may seem that i got a group of friends.
But i feel far from them.
everyone has someone that they are really closed to somewhere else.

But me? currently not a single one.
i know the problem lies on me definitely.
everyday, i feel like im faking.

actually deep down, i feel insecure.
i duno how many people would understand this kind of feeling.
im faking for so long that it has became a habit.

i have been waiting for someone that i can talk to for a very long time.
but the day never comes.
thus im not pinning too much hope on that.
maybe my diary is the only trusted one that i can rely on.

yt emphasize on actions. haix.
im really confused now.
maybe this isn't working well too. i seriously duno
shd i just continue to pretend to be happy?

arghh. now im troubled about myself.
i tink i have talked so much about this point.
there are still many more ahead.

Laugh
Don’t spend your time evaluating humor, asking yourself, “ is it really funny” or “ Do others think it’s funny?” Just react and enjoy it.

/oh this! hahas.
i can laugh at anything.
so no worrys. ;D

Share of yourself
Don’t hold inside your feelings. People who hold things inside tend to feel isolated, believing that others do not understand them. Those who share feel both supported and more content, even if events do no go exactly as they wish.

/doesn't this sounds kinda similar to the first one?
maybe im asking too much. im contented with what i have.
but im just asking a little more from just one person.
is that being too greedy? haix.
who can i exactly reach to?
i shall be that person who can console myself
i must be happy for what i have.
i got many friends out there that makes my school life GREAT! seriously
im just feeling lonely somehow sometimes. so Neverminds (:

Try to think less about the people and things that bother you.
Don’t ignore what bothers you, but don’t focus on it to the exclusion of the things you enjoy.

/YESYES. Think less. Do my work.
stop wondering your mind off to somewhere else.

Don’t blame yourself
When things go poorly, we sometimes start a list of ways we failed, ways we caused the problem. This kind of thinking not only can upset us; it also can keep us from being able to function. The truth is that any situation is the result of some things that are in your control and some things that are out of your control. Don’t delude yourself into thinking a bad situation is completely of your making. Remember, it makes more sense to DEAL with outcomes than with FAULT.

/LOLS. gosh! i think i always do this. hahaha
but really can't be help marhs.
i keep failing in terms of many things.
Can't blame me rights? okay.
But i still have to be responsible with what i do.
As Mrs low says,
"To be or not to be, im responsible"
HAHAs. Hmms. What can i do larhs?
I just feel that im getting more and more useless as i grow up.

That's what my parents told me before.
All because I wasn't that stupid last time.
Plus I don't care so much as I am still a young kid.
But now, when i became sec 3.
I feel lousy at what i do.
Because of this fall, i dun seems to be able to pick myself up
Now that im sec 4, im still like this.
O levels this year. what am i going to do?
Haix.
(Is this listing out my failures?)
I will put that as my worries.
I want to work hard. But i can't do it alone.
Plus i dun seems to have time for it currently.
Maybe this can be done after SYF. i hope.
Im just tired about not being able to study my tests properly.
But everything will turn out fine, i hope.

Get a good night’s sleep
A full night’s rest is fuel for the following day~

/GEE! i shan't talk about this. hahas

Be flexible
When we want to be with friends and family, often we want it to be on our terms. If everybody approaches relationship this way, no one will be happy. Accept that there are always differences b/w people and that if you are flexible you will enjoy your time with them more and feel closer to them.

/Hmms. Don't quite affect me. Neverminds.
I will remember that anyways. Be agreeable yarhs?
I don't like to argue too ><

Be positive
Whether you are at home, in the workplace, or among friends, be the person who exudes optimism and you will find it reflected right back at you.

/I MUST THINK POSITIVE! hahas.
i end up looking as if im very negative when im stating facts. =x
i always believe there's hope, somewhere.
that's why i always go, i hope (:
is that positive enough? lols

Smile
Your smile makes other people happy, which in turn makes you happy.

/Smile! =D are you smiling too? lols

Listen to music

/ i always listen to music. hahahas
but sometimes they make me feel worse =x
LALALALA xP

**Don’t forget to have fun
Everyday leave yourself some time to enjoy, to be silly, to laugh . Having a little fun, a time for pure silliness and happiness, is an essential part of everyday.

/LOLS. i do this very often. sometimes i laugh even when i duno what is the joke =x hahas

Know what makes you happy and sad.
Think about your feelings and emotions. Then, even when you are unhappy, you will take comfort in knowing the cause and how it can be changed.

/YAY! last one! (finally) lols (:
hmms. this one ar. even if i know how to solve it, i won't really take action.
should take yt's advice.
because action speaks more than words.
just like after typing so much, if i dun do it, what's the point.
but i need constant reminders.
Coz i got bad memory you see.
So remind me pls! thanks! :D

I DONE!!!!!
hahaha
Just in case u duno what im doing..
the orange text are what yingting sent me.
then the pink ones are my opinions

i spent 2hrs typing this okaye. haha
today i sleep so much
feeling so bored home.
but i got to rest so yeahs, good and bad.
sort of missing my friends. hahas

tmr having our last rehearsal le!!
OMG. 18 days to SYF O.O
so many is trying to wake the band members up =/

yahs. WAKE UP.
we got very little time left.
WORK HARD OKAY?

anyways, i feeling better le.
sorry if i made u worry.
thanks for your concerns yeahs.
im glad that there are people who still cares about me (:

okay lah, i shall end my post le...
OFF!