days are getting more and more stressful that i have no idea what to do.
im sighing so much these few days. why is there such a thing called ' Olevels' ?
today i saw this topic for the 1st forum of the year.
" Is O levels a waste of time? "

i guess so. Or rather, it is.
i feel that way. Will u still rmb what u have exactly studied 10 years' down the road?
Is just all about a certificate which would determine one's intelligence
Or maybe it doesn't work that way.
perhaps is a result of all the knowledge that we have gained over the 4 years.
Oh well, i still have to take it anyways.

In some ways, i dun feel like graduating.
Everytime when i realised im leaving after this year, i feel like crying somehow.
There's a lot that made me unwilling to graduate.
I dun wish to separate from my dear percussion mates.
and i am loving 4e2 more and more.
why do i have to leave at this point of time.
can i retain there forever and not leave?
Obviously not.

Although sometimes certain things seem to be so tough, and we have to go through so much, but what matters is the end product. It certainly brings satisfication, don't they?

For example, SYF.
To say the truth, i joined SYF is not for CCA points at all.
I dun think i got much though, cuz i dun have any posts or wadever.
But i just want to contribute in some ways, so that i wont regret.
And most importantly, i want to get the experience.

Even though im having problems coping with my studies, complaining a lot, but that's natural esp when im feeling so tired everyday after school and sleeping at late hours everyday.
Plus my parents who are worried about me.
I feel so sorry that sometimes i just throw temper at them.
But i have tried to control myself to keep everything to myself, so that i wont be too rude to them.
But they still think so because im ignoring them.
I hope they can understand though.

I sound so negative. talking about sad issues.
All the more, i did enjoy myslef much in school.
I seriously laughed quite a lot with the crazy people around me.
You know who you are. Ok maybe i shouldn't use the word 'crazy'. dun sound pleasant. Hmm..cheerful and happy people? lol
But anyways, you guys really made my days great and i really have to thank you all for that.

To each and everyone of you that i know...
For every little things that made me smile...
I just want to say Thank You! (:
(just in case i dun have a chance to do so)

Back to the main issue, O levels.
Maybe i should treat it as a challenge.
I have to put in lots of effort to make my way through.

maybe mrs low is right.
i shdn't underestimate my own abilities.
so what should i do next?
i shall get it sorted out by this weekend.

Next week is already the last week of term 1
that's really fast. in about one month's time,
SYF would be here. All the best!

Have been think a lot. Therefore, i poured it out right here.
Not all.. But basically like this.
My mind has been in a whirl for the past few weeks.
Really lost. Stuck at a point that i can't go anymore further.
But after this, i hope i can buck up.

alrights. im tired and i shall end off now.
OFF!