i jes feel hopeless.my life i ruined by my own hands.

i m back!

jux nw went to phy remedial.i was late!my dad's fault.bud nvm.maybe cux of the rain too.

anw i tink i din realli learn much.i am still v confused.i tink my thinking skills are v slow.haix.and my eyes felt so swollen after some crying in the morning.

dun feel lyk toking abt it jus in case i wld burst out crying agn.it is jux abt my studies.i m jux feeling sad tt i m so useless n dumb.i m finished!when i get back all the tests ppr in term 2, i bet i failed everythg!i tink i bettr stop.i dun wanna cry agn.dun understand y i cry so easily..

i m waiting for someone who can be there n guide me.life still can go on.bud i noe in the sense of studies i m so far behind.far till no one can reach...i doubt i will get any nearer.

ok ppl may tell me i may haf other talents or wadeva.bud i jux duno wad.i jux feel lyk i m gd at nth.realli nth.academic is a sure no no.music..nt tt gd.sports..nehx.wad else?if u noe any u bettr tell me b4 my self esteem get as low as zero.hopess state.i tink i m leading life becux i haf to.i duno who to turn to when i m confused.i duno how to tell others my problems.all is kept within myself whereby i m confused myself.i dun even noe where my prob lies.i wanna clear all of them.get it out of myself.

realli no idea wad to do.i feel so bad to be lonely here n haf no one to turn to.4gt it!i dun care animore!i m jus so fed up wif myself.all my hopes are jus lyk bubbles.they disappear after some time.i m hopeless!!!