HELLO!

I am spending lesser time on blogs these days.
really busy and everything. life is still great! yeah!

SO MANY THINGS HAPPENED.

I don't know where to begin.
nevermind, let the Holy Spirit lead me (x

i think i will go backwards.
first today was great!
went back to xinmin!
though im going back on regular basis recently, but today was different!
because i got to meet up with my beloved 4e2!
What came right again was that they are all unsaved.
and I may not really know what's actually in their life right now.
maybe some struggling with some things in life.
I don't know, but God knows.
I really enjoy hanging out with them.
I missed those days too.
Everything was just so wonderful as we think back to the good old times.
And as we look at the photos, wow great times we had.
Then everyone starts to miss one another very much.
After 20years, would we still be as united as like this?
as close as we are right now?
Maybe? Maybe not?
Who knows?
By the time we go to work, everyone will be so busy with their own things.
Will we still be able to squeeze out time to meet up like now??
HMM, it's possible, and I know the only way.

There's a way to let all of us stay together forever.
I mean really stuck together forever.
Even after death. That's to get our salvation and live in the house of God forever.
But what I want is not only that.
I want to see their life to be changed totally by God.

Sometimes in life, we just do not know what to do.
we do not know ourselves.
because we are not the creator of ourselves.
the answers are all with God.
Seek and you will find it.
as He is our creator.

it's like when you buy a new gadget, how people refer to the manual (written by the manufacturer).

People are tired of studying.
Tired from relationships
Had enough of friendship problems
And also struggling with family problems
Do not know what they are doing
Do not understand why they are born to this world in the first place
Everything seems hopeless in life
And these people keep on seeking for entertainment to add 'life' to life.
But at the end of the day, you will still feel empty when all these has ended.

I see many of my friends, just commit their life to gaming.
What's that? Life? really?
What purpose does it gives you?
It makes you happy. yeah maybe.
But do you know that the devil is laughing at you?
That really depresses me.
There's nothing wrong with gaming.
But if gaming is your life, something is wrong.

Not only that.
How should I put this?
In this world, there are many many things that we have to face.
Backstabbing, Insecurity, Negative Stress, Fatigueness, etc

Let me tell you something.
If I haven't accepted Christ into my life, not have a wonderful family in Heart of God Church, my life is going to be really terrible right now.

Firstly, my course is really madnesss.
The stress is really overwhelming.
Many people thinks poly life is relaxing and everything, but unfortunately, THAT'S NOT TRUE!

Everyday, ever since school started, I never really had a day where I can sleep peacefully.
Like what I said before, it's either I get no sleep or I will wake up going " OH NO I HAVE NOT DONE MY WORK!"
I tell you, I am feeling really tired physically.
And I am not doing well right now. All I get is Cs and Ds.
I hardly see any As or Bs.
But my other classmates, most of them, are able to do well.
Even some that never really put in effort did the same as me or sometimes better.
And just YESTERDAY, I failed my module.
Not trying to gain sympathy or anything.
I am glad that I am given a second chance to prove that I CAN DO BETTER!
Even tough my mum keeps saying things like why not you do this then you may pass.
If not you have to waste money waste time waste energy etc.
I know she meant well, but the money part, I am having a little problem here.
They can take those money to gamble off, but not willing to support me for my course?
But well, I understand why she say that. Nevermind.
And also, I don't have any close friend that I can speak to them deep down.

And that's not all.
I am just giving a basic idea of how my life is actually like.
But guess what people?
Even though I may be tired physically at times, there's this something that keeps me going. The purpose in life.
That's all because of God!


With all that, to others, it may be like:
" I regretted coming to this course, I made the wrong choice, I wasted my money! I want to get out of here. I just can't do it!"

"I'm just a failure, useless, stupid!"

"My parents just don't understand me! They don't know what I am going through right now and they are like this. I AM SICK OF IT!"

"Nobody likes me. I am outcasted all the time. Even if I am with them, I feel left out"

"I hate life. Everything just don't seems right to me. I am all confused."

etc

Does any of these sounds familiar?

If you do look back to my older posts during my unsaved days, I was once like that.
And I believe, many others around you may say something like that before too.
Or maybe yourself?

But I don't feel that way at all!
I know God can use me greatly with what I am doing right now.
He has been helping me A LOT A LOT.
He is the one that is always supporting me ALL THE WAY.
And He is always by my side!
All I need is to ask from Him.
Anyone can do that.
God is more than happy when you talk to Him, seek for Him.
Don't even have to make any noise.
Just speak to Him in your heart. He can hear.
feel lonely? needs help? pray to Him.
I have just so many things to say really.

But there's just so many good things I want to say about my life!

Anyway, the key that kept me going despite all the above was simply the strength God gave me.
I know my purpose of being in NYP and living this life to the fullest.
Many people keeps saying we must live life to the fullest, but are you really living your life to the fullest right now?

ok right now it's already very late and i think i have to stop.(3.22am already)
So well, I shall continue another time!

God bless!
OFF!

(continued on 1 sept 11.16pm)

Ok I realised I talk a lot. haha.
I mean I blog a lot. And if you can read until here, you are really awesome la.
hahaa! (:

Alright.
Now it seems quite hard for me to flow back with yesterday's post.

Today had Heart's Symphony Practice!!
And I am not the only percussionist anymore! (:
Anyone interested please let me know! heh
we are still recruiting new players for this newly formed orchestra!
As now we have only a small number of people, we are temporary a jazz ensemble.
yeah! so please tell me if you are interested! (x

And yes!
this weekend is going to be amazing, exciting!!
Sunday is going to be really fun too!
MAMBO CHALLENGE! we are going to gobble up lotsa food! hahaha~!
WANT TO JOIN THE FUN TOO?
TELL ME!! HEH

I am getting really excited.
The future is so amazing.
Video ministry is going to start livefeed in church REAL SOON!
and im going over to city harvest church for training. WOW.
I really have a lot of areas that I need to grow.

And I want to get discipled.
I must be strong and not fragile anymore!
yepp! (:

oh yeah! just now I saw the card lynette sent to me.
I am so touched (:
Then my mum asked who sent to me.
I said a friend (: lol
But it's true. just that i din say it's church friend (x

hmms. well it's going to be an exciting weekend!

gonna end here. XP

OFF!