oh yes! im finally blogging again!
haha. there's sort of lack of entries these days.
oh well, wad to do? im a busy person.
hahaha..

this week is really really tiring.
there's so much assignment to do that i really loss a lot of sleep.
earliest would be 3am like that. and the worst is like NEVER SLEEP AT ALL!
oh well. i guess that's normal for design student.

and friday i overslept!
my lecture starts at 8am, but i only woke up at 8.39am!
i jumped off my bed man.
hahaa~
in the end i din go. cuz it's like even if i go i will still be absent.
no point

so i went for EMERGE instead!
it starts at 10am.

i tot i still have a lot of time.
but i realised that i was wrong!

then i quickly rush there.
waited pretty long for the bus.
then when the bus came, i realised i left my ezlink card at home!!!
oh goodness~

i was already on the bus.
and i have not enough coins.
so i went to change with one lady.
phew~

then i was very worried i will be very late.
i kept praying that i will be able to reach on time.
then finally i reach tampines mrt station.
i quickly buy the standard ticket.
at that time, jieru called me.
then i went to press tampines on the machine -.-
then later my hp flew to the floor.
aiyoo..
hahaa

then i quickly went to take the train.
on the train i suddenly realised, i think i never press on expo just now!
but things aren't that bad. i can top up actually.

I ran my way to the hall when i reach. lols
i was slightly late.
But i manage to get in (:

I enjoyed EMERGE!
it's so great to be in the strong presence of God.
I just can't help crying nonstop (:
Because of the heavy workload I have for the week, I just gave up time to be with God.
I never want to give up my time for God anymore.
It's just great to be in His presence.
Whenever i feel tired and all, taking His breath just brings me strength and rise up again!

EMERGE is just so great.
glad that i manage to go for one of the sessions.
i thought i couldn't make it for any.
but THANK GOD! :D

and yesterday's service was awesome too!
the sermon just impacted me so much.
The Breath of God.

We are all made up of Spirit, Soul and Body.
We tend to do things to meet the needs of our body only, and neglect the needs of our spirit.
But do you know that once we meet the needs of our spirit, the soul and body will be okay?

How it impacted me much is because I haven't been doing my QT for a long time.
and I am lacking of the breath of God.
And what Pst Lia said was so true.
What is true for body is true for the spirit!

When our body is lack of oxygen, we will die right?
and the most sensitive parts of the body to lack of oxygen is our brain and eyes.
We will start to be unable to see things an think properly, and then end up in coma.

Same goes to the spirit.
We need to be in the presence of God to meet our needs of spirit!
Otherwise, we will lose our vision for life, and start to have toxic thoughts in our minds.
Gradually things starts to get so confusing.

Have you ever felt so confused about life?
Finding life meaningless.
Why must we study so hard? get good grades? get a certificate? get a good job? live well?
have lots of money? get into bgr?

THEN WHAT'S NEXT?
does that really satisfy all your needs?

people will just keep on thinking and thinking..but still unable to find the answer.
some will find the right answer, which is good!
some will find a answer they think is right, but actually it isn't, then they head the wrong way of life.
some just seek to numb themselves with the best entertainment they can find.
some will live in depression, do not know what to do.
etc

so wad's my whole point of talking about these?

my point is EVERYONE needs the presence of God to fill up the emptiness in their heart.
when you think no one can heals the wound in your heart, God can. His presence can heal all kinds of wound. I really mean ALL.

Then, everytime we breathe, we take in oxygen and breath out carbondioxide, for?
removing toxic substances!

What about taking in the breath of God? It removes the toxic thoughts and attitudes.
breath of God provide us with new vision, new strength, new hope, more faith!

and seriously, it also provide chance for satan to take us away.
but i will never let that happen. that's scary~
and i know my siblings won't let that happen to me as well.

as i stop doing QT and reading bible, i soon became a habit.
then i just feel really tired to be in His presence.
all i want is to sleep.
but SLEEP ONLY SATISFY MY BODY NEEDS!
i din know, but now i know (:

I did my QT just now.
I feel refreshed~
I slept a lot. i mean A LOT.
but i still feel tired.

Now I know, I need to spend time with God more often (:

So keep taking in the breath of God!
BREATHE IN ! BREATHE OUT! (:

As i think back to the past when i was still not a christian, I always thought living a normal easy life will do.
I never expect much from myself.
I am quite optimistic.
Everything was fine for me.
I din really seek for purpose in life.
But seriously, my life was rather dull.
my weekends would be staying at home, and stuck in front of the computer. yeah boring~~
But that's how i was like in the past~

I once in a while, I will just feel that I am useless and all.
and i fall into depression.
During the crucial time last year, i was really struggling.
I still remember the time when I was really down.
And all my friends starts to encourage me and i start to smile again (:
I was really glad that I had wonderful friends that really care for me.
And now, I know it was God that sent these angels into my life to pick me up.
Great isn't it? God loves me so much long before i was a christian.

Even though i had really good friends, life was still....
lack of purpose.
nothing to drive me on. perhaps maybe O levels.
i think i was just living for the sake of living. haha.
im not quite sure too

but my life was really pretty fine those days.

BUT after i became a christian, things were just different!
I always look forward to weekends, not because i can rest and play games or enjoy.
but im just looking forward for service!
and im look forward to going to church!
to meet wonderful people there!
and to be in the presence of God!
Everthing is just simply great~

and to add on to these wonderful things, church always have wonderful programmes lined up for us! wow!
this weekend there's combined service!
so great lah!

not only that, now everything i do there's a purpose.
i know my purpose for going to school.
i know my purpose to do well in my course.
i know my purpose of life!

God has great plans for all of us! (:

And I ready for this exciting journey!
SO EXCITING! :D

and my dear friends out there that think that im brainwashed.
im not okay. im very fine!

don't understand why people have to relate christianity with brainwashing,
i see no link ><

alrights!

i shall end off here.
i have typed such a long entry!
hahaha (:

OFF!