oh yes! i am finally back updating.
Life has been great!
I have a lot of things to share.
I will try my best to make it as short as possible.

Last weekend we had combined service at Parkview Square.
The sermon on Seed of Dream was impactful.
I kept seeking for vision for God.
But I still seems unsure of what vision God has gave me.
So i kept seeking and seeking..

And God just never fails to see what I am in need of.
The other time when I was too busy to get into the presence of God, and I just felt so dry and all. I was starting to feel that I am taking my time away to spent with Him.
Then on that very week, Pastor Lia preached a sermon on breath of God!
I was really really impacted.
I see the importance to maintain the condition of my spirit by taking in the breath of God everywhere I go, like how we take in oxygen.
It's just vital to all of us.

But my school work just kept coming and coming, and just seems to take all my time away for God.
Because everytime I finish my work, it would be like really late..around 3-5am.
Then by that time I will feel really tired.
But I know God was always with me.
And I tried to make it a point to make at least a short prayer before I go to sleep.
However that was not enough for me.
Because I just got so many things that I want to tell God.

About rising up, about my visions, about my friends, about my family, about many many things.....there seems to be endless things that you can tell God.

Everytime when I am on train, I will just keep asking from God for a vision.
Because, I just have no idea what God wants me to do.
And I do not want to do what I want, but I want to do what God wants me to do.

And these 2 days as I was in church, I gradually see what I can do for God.

Yesterday D2 had sleepover in church.
Initially there was outing, but it was cancelled in the end.
Then I did not know what to do.
I slept for a few hours at home.
But I guess the more I sleep, I feel more tired.
And I was having bad sorethroat.
It's still super pain now ><

I felt moodless.
Then I decided to go to church instead.
I was very early. Then I got nothing to do.
Jieru saw me and passed me a magazine to read.
wow, so I read.
One that caught my attention was one article about how to bring your family to salvation.
I can't really remember the exact details now.HMM
But it gave me more knowledge on what I need to do.

Then next, Jiaxin came.
And after some time, she had a talk with me.
It was like a one way conversation because I didn't speak much. haha.
My mind was blank. I don't know why.
But I found a solution to that today! (:

Anyway, the main point is that she challenged me to rise up.
And that was what I wanted all along.
Then she told me about my video.
That clip that was posted in the previous entries.
And it was shown to Lynette and Pastors!
I was like wow.

Then Jiaxin told me I would most likely be put in the video ministry!
WOW WOW! haha
Later on the day, Pastor How told me that I am in the video ministry before he left church!
And when I have less Parental Objection, I will join post-production!
Oh yah!
And he said that we are no longer using that small video camera soon.
Because they are going to get those semi pro kind of videocam!
WOWs!

Then later at night, D2 start sharing what we want to be in future.
It was really cool! :D
But I still do not know what exactly what I want then.
Jiaxin asked me what was my vision, but I din have any idea because I was still unsure.

Then today's CG was like so great!
I do not know why, but for the past one week, I felt hard to get into the presence of God.
When I do my QT, I just can't really feel anything

But during CG, when it was altar call, I started to feel tears.
Then as we worship God, I just cried, so easily.
I was just really touched by the presence of God.
As Jieru came to tell me what God wants to tell me, I just cried even more.

Then after that I had NYP worship session.
There were like only 6 of us present.
It was when we were sharing, I have this stronger desire to make us of every opportunity.
And also use my talents for God.

The future is going to be so exciting.

If one thinks that you can do everything all by yourself as long as you have the determination, I want to say that God can bring you even further than where you think you will be!

On my way home today, I just kept having thoughts on what I can do.
And today I spent some time to watch the 9pm show.
Haven't been watching TV for a very long time already la. hahaa
Although it's just a drama, but I was just thinking that things is going to be different if God was part of the drama.
Horribles lives there that God is able to mend and He can just do everything!
Excited! :D

I failed to make this entry short.
But I tried my best! heh (:

Alright!
I shall end here now.
OFF!