it has been 1 week ever since i last updated.
tired and too lazy larhs.haha..

nowadays, whenever i reach home, the only thing i want to do is to sleep!
den i would not do anything else. never do my homework and stuff.
test just any-oh-how study.
but thank god this week not many tests.

got the mid-year exams timetable le.freak out!
omg. this means one month later we will be all in study mode.
okok. not one month later, but soon
but it also mean that my birthday is coming too! HEHEHE
luckily my birthday is on sunday, if not kena clash.
cuiyun's birthday, always clash with amaths paper de =/

but one day after my birthday is emaths paper and social studies.
crapp. which means i have to study them on my birthday. hahas.
neverminds! actually i already used to it. lols
ming ku lah..no choice.
but next year will be different =)

okok. stop talking about exams.
stressing me out only.
but i tried calculating the days larhs.
if i start studying after SYF, i will only be left with abt 3 weeks.
plus i need to catch up with my work.
im lagging behind.
in class, i practically cannot absorb much.
out of wad is taught in class, i can absorb about 30-40%?

i tink i better stop talking about studies.

i want to talk about wad happened the past few days.

hmms. let me see what i can remember.

i tink i can't remember anything!
gosh! i got memory failure... x(

shall talk about thursday lah.
that day got speech day rehearsal.
and it was rather crappy. hahas.
how shd i put it? nvm

before that i was doing physics practical.
i was so irritated lahs.
i was getting panicky..cuz time was running out.
then, my results were like so weird =/
i gave up in the end and went for rehearsal lah.

when i reached the bandroom, there was no one there except the sec 1 tubist i tink
then i saw fahan. so i asked him.
luckily he came back. if not i would have no idea where to go
hmms.band was situated at a pathetic corner..
and it sounded bad i tink.
plus the tubas are blocking percussionists' views.

when they started playing, i din noe!
cuz i was looking outside =X
but anyways, i duno izzit gohchern or shuyi said band de percussion very good! HEHEHE. of course XD
then after playing emperata, the rest left.
only left the percussion section.
sitting there, looking after the instruments.

but at the same time, we can watch the performance of other aesthetic grps!
chinese dance was quite messy lahs.
but i tink because they had rehearsal the day before..
and their backs were aching, so got affected?
then guzheng was nice! but gohchern said they kena scolded.
but their movement very uniform.
den it looked good.
then the playing was nice..but maybe some delay here and there?
im not sure.
choir i listen until my goosebumps came out. lols
i was very cold le. den i became colder =X
the piece quite scary. lols
but i duno how to listen to choir larhs.
shall not comment much. haha

we waited super long for the thing to end. so that it is the time for the 'guest of honour' to leave.
all except percussion, bassoon and bass clarinet were 'marching'.
then the first time was terrible.
all playing at different tempo.
super messy. FAILED

so try again and again until it's okay..
by the time it ended, it was about 7pm already.
no time for sectionals balh blah blah.
but double bass was having tutorials.

ermms.
den friday, which is yesterday.
i duno why was i so blur yesterday.
damn freaking angry with myself. haha
cuz i forgot to bring my PE shorts! wad e...
have to wear my skirt for PE lessons lahs.

anyways, we ran yesterday. and next week is the actual test for 2.4km.
shucks lahs. im so scared that i will fail
i ran like half a round, i aleady cannot tahan le..
so i only ran one round. maybe only 3/4 round.

grace, adeline, kristy and me stopped after we completed our first round.
must train myself for 2.4km le lahs.
i dun want to fail =(

oh yahs. yesterday was like fashion show lah. keep changing clothes.
so kuku. first, uniform to PE.
then PE to uniform. lastly, PE to hse tee.
SO FUN SO FUN! -.-

after school went to hougang mall with kailin,yiling, yingting, cuiyun, grace, shuyi and gohchern. FOUR cudas and FOUR falcons.
we are so COOL~ lols
anyways, we were on the bus, second level, at the frnt.
then all of us suddenly realised there was nobody else on the bus EXCEPT US!
scary.. lols
we scared them away. haha
and when we alighted the bus, there were no one else too!
cuz they already left the bus. hahhaha

then we ate and went to the hg stadium
it started to drizzle.
and it became heavier and heavier...
luckily we reached before it poured! PHEW!

sports day was boring as usual.
firstly, we sat there and stare at the rain. lols
wait till it stopped, the events started.

cheer cheer cheer.
but my throat bu zhong yong.
shout a bit then got out of tune le. lols
lousy...haha
so i happy then shout los.
but at least i clapped okay?
not my fault lah. i got lousy throat

then..
4.30pm left the stadium.
followed baozhen to her house..
she went to take her stuff..
then later she helped me carry my paper bag.
AWW..

both of us duno where to go lahs.
went back to school, then to band room
put my bag, go refill water.
then did some strokings.

baozhen wanted to do the notice board stuff. but had to wait for agnes
we tot she haven come. but actually, she's already in the school canteen.
so i went to buy dinner for baozhen and myself.
when i was back with the food. i realise i din take the spoons. ARGHH
im so sotong. haha

then ppl started shifting stuff to the hall le. i helped a bit larhs.
den band practice i just could not focus lah.
kept playing the wrong stuff.
i promise that will never happened again.
cuz yesterday my mum and dad kept me distracted.

i regretted for not telling them everything properly.
my mum tot i will be going back for dinner. when i tot she knew i wasn't going home.
i hate myself for being such a failure.
can;t even do simple stuff like this. haix.

then when i was in the bandroom, my mum called me
she asked me to get out of the school now.
i was damn pissed off lahs.
she wanted to talk to the teacher, but with her tone...
i said teacher was not around.
cuz at that moment i din noe mr ng was at the other side.
but anyways, i dun feel like explaining much lahs.

i was just fuming mad at myself.
i was telling myself, is no one's fault!
is mine! SORRY!!!
i noe it's useless this way.
but i know myself well.
i duno how to communicate well.
if i talked, i would have that pissed off tone.
i dun want to talk larhs.

haix. but everything is okay now.
but i left things uncleared.
i was just agitated that my mum said if i dun get out immediately, she would not allow me to go for competition!
u tink dun go then dun go de mehs.
how irresponsible is that?
sometimes i just duno wad to do larhs.
i dunwan to make her angry but yet...

im just a dumb stupid daughter larhs.
hais. forget it.

later going for tutorials and band practice again.
i duno why is my tummy muscles aching so much when i din do sit up.
whole body aching like mad.
feeling sick and tired.
and i have not got the band tshirt design done..
haiss..

SYF is nearing..ALL THE BEST!
next week is homecoming le.OMG
and my coupons...
maybe one or two of mine is sold.
im left with $15
am i going to spend so much on that day??
duno larhs.
i dun feel the excitement.
cuz i din help out.
i just practically cannot feel anything yet.

i shall end for now.
OFF!