for the past few days, i have been sleeping late. is like around 2am, 3am.
i better do something about it before..my brain drys up?

i got to believe it already lah. my memory is failing from worse to worst.
forgeting this forgeting that.
when did i adopt this stupid habit of sleeping so late? haix.
i must really get rid of this by the end of this month.

recently, a lot of things have been distracting me much.
firstly, the class tee is like really giving me a headache.
but i still want to persist in doing it. cuz i duno.
i just want to get it done. dun wish to see like last minute work.
and then everything ended up like crap.
so i started to survey it on the very first design, and it sucks.

i felt like arrows piercing into my heart when i see all those comments.
but i told myself i shd make use of the comments to improve it.
so yest when i reached home, after my tuition, i did the designs without doing anything else.
i tink im neglecting my studies already.
And that's really bad.
i stay up late, not because im studying. when i study, i fall asleep.
cuz i felt sleepy. (im getting out of point)

so today i re-surveyed again.
i see the half done comments, i feel so confused =/
just want to make everyone like the class tee? so they feel worth it to buy it?
but there's like a lot of things to consider lah.
wad if the producer cannot print out wad we want?
oh well, i got to look deeper into all these.
but it's just getting me distracted.

next. sometimes i feel neglected.
is like my existence is not important at all. as in no one will notice that im not around.
maybe im just too sensitive? but i keep telling myself to be contented with wadever with wad i have.
maybe im expecting too much?

and next next. my worries about o lvls.
i already made up my mind to go tp le bahh.
but i still worry abt my results.
mrs low is expecting us to get 6? ( at least below 10)
that's really aiming so high.
my aim is just like below 15?
anyways, im not using L1R5. lol

but my L1R4 isn't very good too.
i mean my L1R4 is more than anyone's L1R5 out there.
i got 19. but other ppl's L1R5 are lesser than mine.
getting sick of studying. but i still have to work hard for everything im doing.

sometimes i just duno wad im doing lahs.
too many to name. or rather. im too confused to name
and i realised something really bad about myself.
i like to complain so much.
especially this year.
perhaps i am too stresed up.

when i see people study, i really cannot stand it.
cuz im so slack. I MUST CHANGE. i duno how many zillions times i have said it since like sec 1.

but im still slacking T.T
there's a lot of things that i need to sort it out.
i know im not the worst case.
there are ppl who have more things in hands than me.

and YES! i just realised i got a lot of things to do right now =/
one of it is to study maths!! which i haven done so
i tink i better stop now. crapped so much today.

OFF!