under mental torture

3/5 english paper

gt thru' the 1st two paper finalli.still gt 10 more papers to go.

well.eng paper had almost killed me.i dare even imagine wad kinda results i wld get for eng.pray that i cld at least pass.

tmr chinese.i haf gt no mood.i haf a bad headache.esp after taking my eng paper in the hall.air-conditioned.

actualli i dun feel that cold.jux that my body cannot stand the coldness.and i will feel so sick after that.plus my nose gt blocked.and i carn breathe!!!i was breathing using my mouth.till my throat went dry.

haix.stare at my chinese notes.nth get inside.i duno y m i feeling so weak.is lyk my bones is goin to break off anytime.haix.

i carn stand all this mental and physical torture.carn my mum jux stop asking me to study for my chinese.she sounds lyk as if i haf nt started my chinese.
she dun get wad im feeling right nw.pressurised.i feel lyk crying out loud and everythg wld be fine.bud i had to be strong.holding back all my fears n tears.

who noes what i m facing on nw?i noe all of us are facing all the exam stress.bud for me.is a different sort.all i want is support from my parents.all they noe is asking me to study.and to slp early.wad else can i ask for?i duno.i tink is rather sad that during this crucial moment no one is there for u.giving u support.at least i gt my friends there.wishing me gd luck and mking me happy.

tt's y i feel much more bettr when i tink of them.bud nw tt im at hme.i jux gotta bear wif all those naggings frm my mum. i wld appreciate it if she cld stop asking me qns lyk,

'what r u doin?'

'y arent u studying?',etc

im studying!trying realli hard!bud im pissed off when nth can get into my head!

this is realli getting out of nowhere.n i dun c the point of continuing all this depressing stuff.

let me try to find some stuff to cheer up myself.

hmm.yest after dinner.i went to northpoint to buy a guidebk frm popular.den i was tinking of buying a new bag.so i told my dad.he said ok.yay!

so i went to chose one.my mum claim tt it was so big.den i was lyk..big?i luks fine to me.i lyk it pretty much.so i made up my mind.n bought that.

=)

ok.i tink tt's all.

//5 more days to my bdae!!!
hoho.