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ahh well. currently feeling a bit bored. cuz i tink i haf gt nth to do?

today went to school for band. back to usual.

guess wad we did? pack scores. =S

sort of waste ppr.some technical bks only gt one.is lyk we need to write diwn the number of parts oor sthg.den only gt one.write on A4 size ppr.wasting paper lo..

the sec 1s v cute.i mean the way they pass down the scores.lolx

anw ltr on we played lord of the rings.i kept came in at wrong time.duno is me or ys larhs.but i tink is both of us.sumtimes i juz came in late.haix.lousy rhythm skills.

im nt good at crashing.and it seems that i haf been playing crash too much.hmm..nvm.cuz i noe if i play other parts percussion will dao le..so i carn play impt parts.i dare nt.though i wan.dun haf the skills u see. i need A lOT MORE PRACTICES!

oh ya.sad to say.one of the camp days clashes wif one the band say.so i haf to skip one of the band prac.=(

got my excuse slip.muz rmb to pass it to the teacher in charge before 4 june.nt even sure who is the teacher in charge on that day.

enuff of band stuffs.

oh ya.today i find that the school is extremely...noisy? ok.i mean lively..compared to usual saturdays.duno larhs.heard a lot of sounds from different dircetions everywhere.plus there is meet the parents session.so gt visitors.

today i showed my tutor my report book.he said sthg lyk only maths A1 only ar? others leh? haix.wad to do..all my tests so lousy plus mid yr oso nv do very well.work harder nxt time lor.

at least my tutor toks to me.my mum juz noe how to say..lousy grades.den ltr bo chap liao.i rather she scold me lor..haix.den my dad juz say gt pass can liao larhs.nxt time work harder..

haix.well, i really duno wad to do lor.i wan to improve.but how.i want to work hard.but how? the problem is i duno how to study(coz im stupid you see..)

plus im nt that hardworking.rmb last time primary school i still can chiong my studies de.den gt great improvement.bud when it comes to secondary school, im really at a lost.nobody guides me.i need to find my way out.

how how how? i feel that im so different frm the past.my parents always compare me to how i used to be.

times are different now.things dun seems as easy as they think.they juz noe how to say.but do they do anything to help me?

no.

i noe they are unable to help.i understand fully.so i dun really blame them.but the part that im unhappy abt is their supportiveness. esp my mum. wadeva i do she seems to object. ok.she allows.bud she will add on unpleasant remarks. i hate it lor.

go camps oso unhappy. kip asking me nt to go p5 camp. if i dunwan to go i wun go volunteer liao lor.ask me dun go.wait long long.

i sound so bad.nvm.she wont see it anw.=X

i feel so luan at times larhs.find my parents a bit hard to tok to at times.but sometimes fun people to tok to.

so is a bit confusing for me.

i will never be able to understand.

maybe nt at this level.

crapp so much today.

crappy kid.wahahahas

shall end my speech nw.sayorana!