I did not intend to blog. But something touching just happened, and I know I just got to share this.

It has been a really tiring time trying to clear all the deadlines I have in hands.
Over and over again, I failed to meet what I have planned to do.
That's really irritating.
And I began to struggle.
But I hanged on, because I know God would not leave me alone in this.

Many things have been going through my mind.
I just keep thinking that I do not deserve all the things that God has given me.
His mercy, His love, His peace, His joy, and everything
And I feel really really guilty at times.
Sometimes as I read the bible, I come across some verses that makes me fear so much that I won't be able to hear from God anymore.
And it just slowly draws me to distant from God because I am just so scared.
But I guess I was just wrong.

Sometimes, it gets really tempting to just turn away from God when you are occupied with so many things, and the things happening around you.
But I never want to, because I just love my God.
Since I made this decision to stay with Him all my life, it's not going to be just a short term thing, but it's going to be an eternal thing.

It hasn't been great not doing QT.
And Pastor has been preaching about planning our life, getting onto a momentum in our routines and accelerating.
I felt not so good not dwelling in God's presence for days.
And I am still trying to catch up with my Bible Reading Plan.
And yesterday, I just knew I need to take out some time to spend with God.
It was just awesome!

And about 10 minutes ago, I saw this email that Jonathan has sent me and I believe it's God-sent.
God truly works in amazing ways to give assurance that He's with me always.
As I read it, tears just rolled down.
Words just can't describe how I feel right now.
But it's just great! yepp (:
Here's the email:

One day a while back, a man, his heart heavy with grief, was walking in the woods. As he thought about his life this day, he knew many things were not right. He thought about those who had lied about him back when he had a job.

His thoughts turned to those who had stolen his things and cheated him He remembered family that had passed on. His mind turned to the illness he had that no one could cure. His very soul was filled with anger, resentment and frustration.

Standing there this day, searching for answers he could not find, knowing all else had failed him, he knelt at the base of an old oak tree to seek the one he knew would always be there. And with tears in his eyes, he prayed:

"Lord- You have done wonderful things for me in this life. You have told me to do many things for you, and I happily obeyed. Today, you have told me to forgive. I am sad, Lord, because I cannot. I don't know how. It is not fair Lord. I didn't deserve these wrongs that were done against me and I shouldn't have to forgive. As perfect as your way is Lord, this one thing I cannot do, for I don't know how to forgive. My anger is so deep Lord, I fear I may not hear you, but I pray that you teach me to do this one thing I cannot do - Teach me To Forgive."

As he knelt there in the quiet shade of that old oak tree, he felt something fall onto his shoulder. He opened his eyes. Out of the corner of one eye, he saw something red on his shirt. He could not turn to see what it was because where the oak tree had been was a large square piece of wood in the ground.

He raised his head and saw two feet held to the wood with a large spike through them. He raised his head more, and tears came to his eyes as he saw Jesus hanging on a cross. He saw spikes in His hands, a gash in His side, a torn and battered body, deep thorns sunk into His head. Finally he saw the suffering and pain on His precious face. As their eyes met, the man's tears turned to sobbing, and Jesus began to speak.

"Have you ever told a lie?" He asked?

The man answered - "yes, Lord."

"Have you ever been given too much change and kept it?"

The man answered - " yes. Lord." And the man sobbed more and more.

"Have you ever taken something from work that wasn't yours?" Jesus asked?

And the man answered - "yes, Lord."

"Have you ever sworn, using my Father's name in vain? "

The man, crying now, answered - "yes, Lord."

As Jesus asked many more times, "Have you ever"? The man's crying became uncontrollable, for he could only answer - "yes, Lord."

Then Jesus turned His head from one side to the other, and the man felt something fall on his other shoulder. He looked and saw that it was the blood of Jesus. When he looked back up, his eyes met those of Jesus, and there was a look of love the man had never seen or known before.

Jesus said, "I didn't deserve this either, but I forgive you."

It may be hard to see how you're going to get through something, but when you look back in life, you realize how true this statement is.

Read the following first line slowly and let it sink in.

If God brings you to it - He will bring you through it.

Lord I love You and I need You, come into my heart, today. For without You I can do nothing.

When Jesus died on the cross, he was thinking of you! If you are one of the 7% who will stand up for him, forward this with the Title "7%"

93% of people won't forward this.

This is certainly not the first time I am facing the same kind of problem.
And I seriously want to get out of this.
I kept seeking for a breakthrough in my life.
Now is the time! I gonna persevere!

No matter what happens, I will still stand firm.
It's a real test that I need to breakthrough!

Oh yes, today is Valentine's Day. Jesus has just given me something great! :D
What else can be greater than His everlasting love! (:

I know I am not alone :D

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY EVERYONE! <3
And if you think that you are alone on this day, let me tell you that it's not true!
Jesus loves you more than anything! YAY :D