i m pissed off!anw i m jux too tired...

band ended sho latee todae.n i still gt sho much hw nt donee.feelingg realli sick n tired.everyday during reading period i wld start dozing off.(-_-zzZ..)

anw i passed my eng test.however i failed the other.=( wells.nvm.dere will alwaes be tmr.=)))

i m jux rottin on evry band rehearsals.u c it is 3 hrs.n wad i did was.nth.yea nth.(except playing wif drumstix)during sectionals.practise my part?yea..n the cr cymbals goes ta rest ta rest all the wae..tt's wad i practise.ok nvm.
nxt time i will jux brg some preservatives to band.hmm.den i will nt rot.sounds logical?

it's jux lyk wasting time dere.wad else can i do?walk arnd.i noe it's my fault.i m jux too slack ritez?okok. i geddit.

nt tt i wanna complain.bud this is practically how i feel.i guess bz feels the same as me.both of us were rotting together.i guess.i try to mk myself occupied doin silly stuff.todae i decided to play cabasa.pretty fun.indeed kept me occupied some how.

sometimes i jux feel so zi bei.i joined band onli when i m sec 2.n ys bz n by was sec 1.nw they r sec 2s n i m sec 3.i dun tink i luk i a sec 3 at all.cux i m jux nt up to standard.n i noe i m owaes been treated as a junior.cux i m a junior.ok nvm.bud i jux feel that i sux on anythg i play.i cant sight read.i cant roll.i cant do anthg properly.

arGHX!!!!i jux cant hold it animore.i go to blast soon..i noe wad i m doin to type now wld be nonesense.bear with it!ok.

i feel realli realli fed up.i duno y.i jux feel lyk crying out loud n vent my anger.buden i cant do it anwhere.i can onli do it when my parents r aslp.if nt they wld start askin me qns tt i dunwan to ans.is lyk nw when i m using the com.my mum will ask m i doin hw or emailin?well i m nt emailin.i m jux online.so dat i can ask qns at any moment i want!n to keep myself awake!!!if nt i will start to doze off when doin hw!!!if i tell them tis they will sae it's nonesense.i noe it is.buden it's a fact!!!i jux gt so mani thgs to do.i reach hme latee almost evrydae n they jux cant gib me a break.i haf to control my anger.nw tt i m ignoring them dey find me rude!i noe it is.buden i cant tok to them.i jux scared tt i will lose my control n start crying in frnt of them.how??the onli thg i care is nth nw.NTH!!!!wadeva ppl sae i dun care.wanna beat me slap me scold me badmouth me.. wadeva!
calm dwn....i still dun feel gd.omg i m.. i tink i m goin to burst out in tears liao..how??relax..okok..evrythg is ok..jux get on wif my hw.sigh!

i m jux nt in a gd mood this wk.hope ppl can understand.if nt,i oso dun care le.i m trying v hard to calm dwn u noe?

haix..i m nt goin to continue anymore.i m goin to numb up myself wif hw!tmr gt maths test.i bet i will do badly.i jux cant concentrate.ok..i go le.buaix!